I am afraid of the future when I make risk assessments or try to imagine scenarios.

I feel scared when I think about my personal life and how I will ensure that the people who matter to me are safe, health, financially and emotionally.

Long story short… I want to have some kind of control over life.

Yes, me, the stoic student. The innovator who loves uncertainty and loves to play with experiments.

I need to remember myself of memento mori, I need to remember how insignificant I am in relation to more than 8 billion people in the world. I’m not special or immortal.

So, what’s left? A lot.

I’m living my life. I’m capable of caring about people. I’m capable of supporting my local community. I can raise my children. I’m able to have fun playing basketball or playing the drums. I am able to create and maintain relationships. Business, family and friends. I can develop affection for people. I can feel.

And that brings me to something I am also afraid of: being accepted, loving, and being loved. Day by day, I will work on this process, and as I move forward, with my fears and my awareness.

— Daniel Wildt

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