I would like to say mine is good, but usually it’s not.

Anxious, judgmental, provocative, sarcastic… I feel like I have a complete bully inside my head just to (not) take care of me.

Does not matter that I’m a 6 foot 4 with 44 years old and with +28 years of a work / contribution to all sorts of projects and teams.

To the inner voice, I’m not enough.

And I had enough of it… I must say.

When I was younger…

• I’ve heard things like “be angry”… not sure people expected me to become Hulk.
• I’ve heard things, when I did volunteer work like “all good, but could it be less money?” or “you are successful, just need to collect some money now”.

The inner voice are voices we upload to our head. They have names. Father, mother, a brother or sister, a boss?

My inner voice talks to me like a villain, whispering, sometimes I feel that it is “the joker”, it wants some sort of revenge… but what I have done wrong? What else do I have to prove? I did nothing but help people where I can and share what I experience in projects and what I learn from them.

In the end, our inner voice is just a hurt child?

I want to recreate this path, like a way of finding my inner child. Should I ask for forgiveness? A hug? I don’t know.

— Daniel Wildt

P.S: I need to get easier on me.

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